Closure
The ex emailed me today asking for forgiveness for the pain and hurt he caused me. I was a blank when I read it - its not that my heart had stopped feeling or turned icy cold. But I simply had no describable feeling or emotion. I was neither thrilled nor agitated; neither glad nor bemused; neither surprised nor shocked. I was just fine, and well simply nonchalent.
Its not right to publish his email on the WWW, but I hope he is genuinely sincere about turning over a new leaf. Then again, its not my perogative to judge. God sees the heart and I can only have faith and trust. Though I must admit I was quick to judge the authencity of his remorse.
I replied his email and told him that I no longer bear ill feelings towards him; and that my wounds have healed. I wished him a blessed life ahead and with God's blessings.
Those were the words from my heart.
Will I want to meet him? No I won't and I don't see the need to. Whilst the wounds have healed, I do not see why I should attempt to pry them open again. To pierce those wounds in my heart again would be unfair for my current beau. I don't want to offer him a broken and wounded heart. He's a great blessing in my life and I find myself loving him more and more each day. And the last thing I would do is to hurt him.
Closure, full closure please. I forgive you for the hurt you brought, but let's get on with our own lives alright. God bless and may you find the peace within you.
Its not right to publish his email on the WWW, but I hope he is genuinely sincere about turning over a new leaf. Then again, its not my perogative to judge. God sees the heart and I can only have faith and trust. Though I must admit I was quick to judge the authencity of his remorse.
I replied his email and told him that I no longer bear ill feelings towards him; and that my wounds have healed. I wished him a blessed life ahead and with God's blessings.
Those were the words from my heart.
Will I want to meet him? No I won't and I don't see the need to. Whilst the wounds have healed, I do not see why I should attempt to pry them open again. To pierce those wounds in my heart again would be unfair for my current beau. I don't want to offer him a broken and wounded heart. He's a great blessing in my life and I find myself loving him more and more each day. And the last thing I would do is to hurt him.
Closure, full closure please. I forgive you for the hurt you brought, but let's get on with our own lives alright. God bless and may you find the peace within you.
posted by Shazza at Tuesday, September 06, 2005
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