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C'est la vie: August 2004

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

I'm baaack!

whee! I am back online!! :) Because the new house was not cable signal ready, I had no access to the internet till the technicians came down to fix it today. The past 2 internet-less days were somewhat unbearable. Its an addiction I say.. heh

Had a little bus adventure on my way home from work today. The train service was disupted due to an accident and I had to take the bus instead. Had absolutely no idea what bus to take and I hopped into the first familiar one that came. It was a mini adventure considering I had no idea about the bus route except that it would ultimately bring me to the Bukit Panjang interchange. The bus ride was rather pleasant as it zipped through housing estates. A different side of Singapore, one so familiar yet so foreign. Nice. :)

Sunday, August 29, 2004

newbie on the block!

Just a quick one. I am moving house tomorrrow and I'm totally dead beat from all the packing. Am gonna try to finish my french homework before stealing some forty winks.

At the comex held at Suntec convention halls, I got myself a new toy on Friday! Heh, am a proud owner of a Toshiba laptop now.. the model is Tecra M2v!! Thanks to Fang who came to my aid. I was totally dazzled by all the pamphlets and signages, and was totally clueless between a pentium and a intel centrino mobile technology stuff... !! And the sales people at the exhibition were no help at all. hmpf.

k doks, I'll be back soon! Stay cool and funky people!


oh.. the company dinner and dance in dec is themed 'retro'.. any ideas? :) Pray tell.

Friday, August 27, 2004

Reminiscing

Reading this makes me laugh.. in very reminiscing sorta way. :) renxiaojie.. you dun bluff!

I miss school days.

Secondary school days were a blast. That was where I found some of my best friends which I still keep in touch with now.

Secondary one

I still remember the excitement I felt on my first day of school. Nevermind what everyone says about my 'ugly' uniform (its not ugly!!), I actually felt a sense of pride. The bus ride to school was jittery. Other than this other girl from my primary school, there was no one else I knew who was going to the same school.

And guess what? Assembling just outside the classroom, I caught glimpses of this girl who looked awfully familiar. Turns out she was an old friend from kindergarten! haha, funny funny. Who would to guess we would cross paths again and these days, i always refer her as my oldest friend. She got married last year and I was honoured to be the emcee/translator for her church wedding. Am just waiting to be god-ma to her kiddos now. ha.


Secondary two

I must have been mad to get myself involved in 4 ecas. Was chosen to be a school prefect, and I was also in the school squash team, choir and Christian Fellowship. And that was the year Singapore hosted the Commonwealth games, so off I went to take part in the combined schools choir. A memorable experience, not to mention the opportunities to ogle at the cuties from the boys schools.. lol.. catholic high guys are cute... :)~ heh

That was also the year I went to UK for the first time with the girls from school. It was a literary tour. 14 days? Visted places like Big Ben, Bath, Blackpool, Lake district.. totally awesome!

And, yeah I remembered Pam in her gawky short hair with huge glasses!! fine, I was gawky looking too! lol

Secondary three and four

With the pressure of 'O' levels and prefectorial board (I was given the honour to be the Head Prefect), I slowly drifted away from choir and CF. I remembered the hours spent in Prefects' room having meetings and running off to other schools to attend events like Prefects' Investiture/Commendation.

There was a lot of unspoken expectations from the teachers and everyone else. I had to be a role model both in conduct and studies and sometimes the pressure was unbearable. The tears were shed in silence, cause the Head girl ain't suppose to be weak.

Nevertheless, I wouldn't have grown and matured without these pressure and responsibilites. Looking back, those things happened for a reason.. a God-intended reason for me to develop myself. And till this day, I am glad.

JC days!!

Freeeeeeeeeeddddddoooooommmmmmmm !! Maybe I am a late bloomer when it comes to rebelling and having disregard for school rules and decorum. I was secretly harbouring the desire to rebel. Was plotting schemes to play truant etc. Orientation was a blast! I had so much fun and laughter, and it was no longer important if people didn't see me as a strict disciplinarian. cause I wasn't! I didn't want to be in the limelight anymore, i wanted to be the average student.

But that was a little hard when the principal actually knows you (should have gone to acjc to rebel instead! kidding!). So barely into week 1 of school, I was sat down by the principal and council teachers who eloquently listed the wonders and pride of being a student councillor. So lured into it I was.

Being a student councillor was miles apart from being a school prefect. No need to enforce discipline!! From 'catching' people who were late, without their name tag, or with socks unfolded etc as a prefect... I switched doing things like organising for National Day celebration, college day, cheerleeding as a councillor, staying overnight in schools to paint banners and climbing over school gates at night, that was quite a transition. heh.

You know what..I think I learnt to be serious in seconday days. And jc days showed me the need to liven up and relax. And life's a good balance.

Thursday, August 26, 2004

I'm a Toy-r-us Kiddo wannabe!

A busy day at work with one of my team-mates on leave. And it didn't help that he was no help! hmpf. bleh. And it was a bad idea to wear contact lens to work, my eyes were screaming for oxygen by the time I took them off. So I was a grouchy person in the office today. grrrr!!

And I am still feeling grouchy now!! :(

Teh kopi longan lychee bandung dong gua cha - say this fast, ten times!!

r3alm - remember that? heh our days of decadence in jc... I can't remember.. did I zhao school with ya? :P

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Two steps forward, one step backwards

A friend emailed me his wedding photos today. They were nicely taken though I chided him for not smiling more! Maybe its with guys and taking photos. Most guys I know flitched at the idea of taking photos, let alone wedding photos. heh.

Ever fantasized about the "perfect wedding" when you were young? The kind of wedding gown you imagine yourself donning, the bouquet of flowers you'll carry, the kind of wedding reception you've have, the grand church building where you will take your vows, and most importantly, the prince charming in the shinning armour standing next to you gazing deeply into your eyes as you exchanged vows.

I'm not ashamed to admit I had and I think I still do..

In my young mind back then, I weaved the perfect wedding fantasy. I saw myself laughing with much abandon on what I believed to be my happiest day. I imagined my future, my life with the man I marry. I thought of names for the beautiful kids we would have, the kind of house we would stay in and the time we would spend as a happy family of four.

Do all these make me a hopeless romantic?

I've lost count of the number of weddings I have attended since graduation. My peers are getting married one after another. Am I getting old or is this the "age" where people deem perfect for tying the knot? Afterall at 24, you can't exactly be called young anymore, and not being young anymore means finding someone to settle down with, or so said the relatives you meet at family gatherings. bLAH.

My cousin who turned 30 recently told my aunt that she's given up on men and does not wish to date/ marry. She wants a life of independence, without any marital or family commitments. I could detect worrying signals from mum as she was telling me about this cousin, like she was afraid I'll follow her footsteps. haha!

Hmm.. would I?

Honestly I don't know. I believe in marriage, and that it is God's gift for those whom He had not destined to remain single. I would love to have a loving husband, be a loving wife and have beautiful kids.

Que Sera Sera.

Well, I guess I can always be god-ma to my friends' kids!

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

sigh

A deja-vu feeling, yet again.

I don't want you back.. no no. I'm walking away.

Monday, August 23, 2004

ma fin de semaine

Saturday saw the last lesson of French class - beginner 1. We are going to have a one week break before commencing on beginner 2 class in September. I can hardly wait! :) Most of my current classmates are continuing the course, so it will be fun! Seems that my saturday afternoons would be saved strictly for french class. I am also glad that I have not missed a single class of the 8 lessons. That's quite an achievement considering how I like to pig in on saturdays!

J'ai hate que les cours de francais recommence -- merci Dom! tu es le meilleur (insert, hate = can hardly wait)

Sunday. Today.

A friend called in the afternoon. She was asking me about the guy I mentioned in my previous blog entry. And somehow, she commented that I am a heartbreaker. Me? A Heartbreaker??? wahahahha... I was laughing out loud! I am so so so not one, never come close to being one. If anything, I am always the 'dumpee' and the one with the broken heart and tears.

Anyways.

I am a new believer of home d-i-y shops! My new room in the new place that my parents bought came equipped with built in wardrobes, tables and bed. Now i do like the colour green, but can you believe the wardrobe, the table, the side cabinets and everything green!!?? yucks. We were contemplating whether to get a contractor to change the doors etc, but the price quoted was rather exorbitant. To cut the long story short, I chanced upon the d-i-y shop one fine day and decided to pop inside. And there I found these self-adhesive stick on wallpaper thing, which cost $8.90 for a roll. And there was the colour I like.. purple!! So I bought a couple of rolls and decided to transform my new room. And now? no more yucky green wardrobes!! I will take a photo soon and show ya. :)

No more green no more green! Wheeee!! And Dad painted my walls lilac today with pink trimmings.. heh.. now that's what I call a girly whirly room! brilliant! :)

Saturday, August 21, 2004

The Pig's in

I'm a happy person each time I walk past a Happy House! :) The vibrant colours and the cutesy toys in the shop are just too hard to resist. I have been contemplating buying a bright yellow brolly with a pink piggy imprinted on it... heh. Imagine me in my work attire carrying that umbrella, lovely sight isn't it! :P

Have I ever mentioned my fascination with pigs, anything piggy? Last I counted, I have about 30 stuffed toys in the likeness of pigs. And I've given them really cool names. There's Dr Piggy, Pignolia, Piggy Wiggle, Piggly etc etc.. They comes in all shapes and sizes! Wonder if they have a term for people like me with a fetish for pigs. Piggolism?

So, I was walking past Happy House at Citylink after dinner and I strolled in to browse. And look what caught my eye!!




Isn't it quite lovely? Its a two-sided thing you hang on your door knob.. Pig In.. Pig Out. Heh.

I like the Pig Out's illustration. The Pig's out hunting for love. Wahahahaha.

Ok, I got something to confess..

I like this guy...

:)

Friday, August 20, 2004

Eeks

I'm very upset. Typed a really long post before my computer decided to crash on me. Waahhhhh!!

And because I like to summarise, here's what my long post was about.

PMS

Tidying up my workstation

Online training

Role Play

Friday I'm in love

Good night!

Thursday, August 19, 2004

Got hit by a bus

I took a different route to work today. Took the bus instead of the train.

It was exciting yet strangely comforting experience.

Suddenly, it was apparent that there are many prisms to things, living and non-living alike. People seem less grouchy on the bus too. So this is how its like from another perspective? How exciting.

Comforting? I don't know why I felt that way but it makes me smile to myself.. Strange eh?

Try breaking away from your daily routine and habit? Don a different hairstyle, eat something different for lunch, sleep on the different side of the bed... anything !! And tell me how it feels?

Do you feel jittery all over because of the unfamiliar or otherwise? Are you thrilled by being different?

Pray tell.

I'm going to go blow dry my hair now, by myself. Sigh.

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

Counting down

'You love me, but you're not in love with me? What's that supposed to mean?'

'Love is what's left when being in love has gone, okay? Its when you care about someone and you hope they're happy, but you're not under any illusions about them'


~"Man and boy" by Tony Parsons, p124

I was reading this on my way to work and somehow it hit me.

Love and being in love? Can you really separate these two?

Not under any illusions about them ... Illusions? A distortion of reality? Makes the whole love thing sounds like a dream, one where you are waiting to be awakened.

Baffling.

1 Sept .. fast approaching .. The deadline I set for myself.

God, help me to be determined this time.

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Je m'ennuie de Jacky

I like the still of the night. So quiet and serene.

Back to work today. 3 days away from work. 85 emails.

Started reading 'Man and Boy' by Tony Parsons today, and I like it so far. Am contemplating getting his other books (since Times Bookshop has 20% storewide discount for members till end Aug).

Peach Iced Tea is super duper nice. Go try. Have it iced cold though.

I miss Jacky, nevermind his barking and peeing round the house.

Sigh

Do dogs go to heaven?

Sunday, August 15, 2004

Bon weekend?

Its been a crazy weekend with shopping and unpacking for the new house. And gosh, not to mention the amount of money I spent. It is now only middle of the month and I am pretty broke already. Good thing I have savings set aside for a rainy day.

Its back to work tomorrow and I'm actually feeling quite happy about it! I like being at work - it makes me feel useful and occupied. Does that make me a workaholic? I used to view work as an outlet to escape from my problems. I saw work as a safety net, I would work myself really hard to the point of sheer exhaustion and I loved how tired I was after a day's work. And I dreaded the weekends cause there's not work. It was a routine I set for myself - work, home, sleep, wake up, work. For a while, it was the panacea to my broken heart.

Now? I no longer feel that way. The heart is slowly mending and time does heal, really cliche to say but how true. And weekends are no longer dreadful.

1st September will be an important day. Last year that day, it marked 2 important events of my life and I wouldn't be where I am today if not for them. Sometimes I looked back and wonder why things happened the way they did, but if God is in charge I just have to have faith and believe.

Trust and obey, for there's no other way.

Friday, August 13, 2004

Its a record

Lots.of.things.to.do.today

Good morning!

I went to sleep last night with a list of things to do today, and wondering how I am going to finish all that. And whatdiya know, I got up early today.. record time of 8.30am.

I.am.proud.of.myself.

ok, time to go wash up and hit the road. lotsathingstodotoday.

And in case I don't see you, its good afternoon, good evening and good night!

Thursday, August 12, 2004

Love and dating

I got out of bed early today, courtesy of a prank call on my cellphone!

So I was reading my friend's blog and chanced upon this love test and below are my test results. Never mind the spelling error (obedience? its obedient), I thought it was somewhat accurate, particularly point 5. And perhaps I am a little afraid of marriage. I am simply not ready for that.

I'm not one who hankers after casual dating, and if dating does not lead to the goal of marriage, why waste each other's time? Some time back, I read Joshua Harris' 'I kissed Dating Goodbye' and I'm convinced that until I am ready to commit to the vows of marriage, I am going to treasure this God's gift - the time of singleness. Albeit being hit by occasional bouts of loneliness, being lonely should never justify casual dating. How would you feel if a guy/girl is dating you because he/she is only lonely and just wants someone, anyone to be there?

1. You are attracted to those who are warm and obedience.
2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored.
3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is loyal, faithful, never change.
4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.
5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is one that you care not only about the present but also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship that you can grow with.
6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage.
7. You are afraid of marriage, you think it would take away your freedom.
8. At this moment, you don't have the thirst for love, you can't do anything for it, you won't fall for it easily.

And because I was bored, I decided to find out my Jap name :)

Watashiwa 石丸 Ishimaru (round stone) 三千代 Michiyo (three thousand generations) desu. Dozo Yoroshiku.

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Day 1

I woke up at 1pm to an empty house. My parents had gone out to inspect the new house and to collect the keys. Lunch was on the table but I was too lazy to eat. Plonked in front of my computer, i began to surf aimlessly and chatted with my pal Weroy Wooly Wolf. WAhahahah!

Spent the afternoon absolutely bumming and vegging in front of the computer and telly. There is this Korean drama serial when I turned on the black box. There was a scene where the guy told the girl that he will always be there to shelter her from the rain and he's only a pager call away. *swoons* ooooohhhhhhh... then the scene changes, guy A was telling guy B (they are brothers and guy B happens to be the girl's fiance) that he should never let the girl cry let alone be drenched in the rain. No prize for guessing that guy A happens to be in love with the girl too.

Anyway, that got me thinking about rain and shelter. A couple of days ago, I was reading my friend's blog, with an entry titled 'He and She - Umbrella'. The entry was written entirely in mandarin and I thought it was a beautifully written piece. Ever stop in your tracks on a rainy day and look around you? I did (not on a heavy downpour day of course!) and the feeling is surreal. I've seen anxious mothers edging the umbrella closer to their child's side, whilst subjecting half their body to the rain willingly. I'm sure parents make greater sacrifices than this. Couples snuggling close to each other sheltering from the rain together, symbolic of a sense of togetherness braving the trials and tribulations as one. And of course, people looking totally disgruntled with the rain, grumbling of the hassle of it all to carry an umbrella, or worst still to be caught unprepared and ended up soaking wet. Rain can be a damper indeed, but don't you find the air a lot more refreshing and fresher after a shower? I like how the air smells after a downpour. It felt like God had ordered a spring cleaning to rid the filth and foul. It felt right and nice. And comforting.

And on a totally different note, I had my eyebrows trimmed/plucked today so I am feeling a tad awfully good about myself. And lookies what I got today...


The prelude to My Sassy Girl.

k doks, I'm gonna go watch this now. Laters!

I am a ribena kid


It doesn't take a lot to make my day. Just give me ribena served in my fave piggles wiggles mug :)

Jolly Jolly!

Juxtaposed to yesterday's horrid taxi experience, today's ride back was a pleasant one. Quiet and mind-my-own-business kind of taxi driver, I like!

I'm in a pretty jolly mood now, particularly so after I set my out-of-office message in my outlook. I'm gonna be on leave the next three days! Yay, tres bien!! :) The last time I went on leave was end February and that's been a while.

No plans yet. But 3 days to do whatever I want sounds perfectly marvellous! Je suis tres contente!

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Ramblings at 3.33am

National Day and I was at work..

How was everyone's national day? How was the national day parade? I was trying to catch the parade online but unfortunately I can't get it up and running. Work wasn't too busy today, guess the folks at London knew it was a apecial day here in sunny Singapore and decided to be kind. :)

The crowds near City Link and Esplanade are almost impossible today. Seas of people clad in red were swarming across to the theatres on the bay. Albeit feeling pretty dazzled and dizzy by the crowds, I must say it was nice seeing families consisting from old folks to kiddos coming together to celebrate our nation's birthday. It warms my heart.

There is a chinese saying which is loosely translated as 'Without nation, there is no home'. How true and apt that is. I believe one's duty to nation comes first before one's obligation to the family. People often questioned the issue of conscription in Singapore. Why make it compulsory for the Singaporean males to serve in national defence? Why waste 2 years of these people's lives? Perhaps coming from me (a Singaporean female who is not legally binded to enrol in the army), this would sound totally abracadabrant.. but I honest believe and subscribe that we should ask what not the nation can do for us, but what we can do for the country. Back then in Australia, I've heard (and met) some Singaporean guys who had 'ran away' from Singapore to avoid national service. In doing so, they have to sever their ties with Singapore and never ever to step foot in this country or they will be charged and possibly imprisoned.. Really extreme and foolish decision to make, if you ask me. I remembered not being the least impressed with these runaways.

Taxi drivers

Just because I got off work at 2am in the morning and am waiting for a taxi outside a hotel (insert.. my office building is next to a hotel), it does not mean I am engaged in some hanky panky sorta work. Grrr! I hate taxi drivers who give you the look and ask where you work. Totally uncalled for, and its not like I'm scantily dressed or what. And boy, do I look like a Chinese National???? (no offence meant if you are a Chinese National reading this) I tell ya, if any taxi driver would be so daring to ask me 'how much', I am calling the 999 to report harrassment. bLAH.

The taxi driver just now must have thought it a tad strange to see me waiting for a cab outside the hotel. Never mind he didn't go by the way I wanted (idiot went by the long way), he had an irritating grin when he spoke and asked "eh Miss, where you work.."

"Bank.. " I was cursing and swearing quietly. For a brief moment, I thought of saying something stupid like I am a undercover policewoman.

"Oh bank ah.. bank got work so late one meh"

"Yah" I was not going to go into a discussion about my work.

"You know, my brother-in-law works in a bank too... he blah blah blah...."

"......."

"He wanted me to go pick him up at Tampines.. but siao lah, too far away..."

"......." frowning and wondering when he would just shut up.

"Go by this way not that much different right.. "

"........"

By the time we reached the exit of the expressway, I stole a glance at the meter and noticed that it was about $1.50 more than usual. I was determined not to pay him the extra charge.

Finally, we reached my place.

"How much you normally pay ah Miss.. "

"$17.25 if we had gone by the SHORTER way.." The meter shows $18.60.

"Ok, you pay me $17 dollars lah.. " Sure I was going to do that!! Handed him a fifty, grabbed my change and hopped out of the cab, with him mumbling to himself. It was undoubtedly an uncomfortable ride home!

Thank God there aren't that many weirdo cabbies around!

My new toy



Got this today from my colleague. Although it looks like a car remote key, it is unfortunately not one. Its a pocket alarm. Once the red button is activated, it lets out a shrieking alarm of 115 decibels! I was testing it in the office and I almost went deaf! Ouch. Silly ole me.

This is the next best thing to a electric zapper and pepper spray. I heard these two are illegal in Singapore (?!) But I pray I don't ever have to activate this alarm..

Sunday, August 08, 2004

A hectic day

Not a good idea to go look at the new house and furniture-shopping when you only have 5 hours of sleep the night before! Its been a mad rush today, and not to mention waiting for the stupid real estate agent who arrived a whooping 45 mins late! bLAH. After inspecting the house, its off to IKEA. The great IKEA sale is on and the whole place is packed with people!! bLAH again. SIGH. My feet are so darn sore now.

Anyways, I was just checking my Friendster and saw the below in my messages inbox. WAHAHHAHA I was basically laughing my head off when I was reading it. I have never received such a long message from a stranger, let alone a lonely seagull!! Guess he either took much effort to write this or its one of those message templates he used frequently. And he even gave me his contact details which I have replaced with 'XXX'. LOL. Some people just have too much time lah. I can't be bothered to reply. *yawns*

Dear Sharon @}-}----- ,

Hi guess u know little about mi though. I was born in SG educated here and luv Artz alot, however even though made it into Nanyang Fine Arts, but sad to say nvr able to kick started there due to some reasons. Haiz well, i am kinda open abt everything coz' life need to learn how to accept things as they are though. Got into technicial line manys ago, still in there but then still active in design/music and even artzs.spend 3yrs in states 98-2001 work cum study.Back here for good. Came to know abt this site thru'friends as they know i am seriously looking for a good soul-mates for longtime companionship, frankly speaking, i dun really haf much for relatioship coz' being travelling here n there pretty often but guess now this lonely seagull need to find its warm nest wif his partner....?! Hmm....u might find it weird reading this mail as it makes mi sound like a damn desparate guy haunting for his prey.(buhahaha) Nah, not really though, all/most friends left me(either all attached or married) and i hardly go anywhere to chill out so social circle actually got smaller, i really sinerely wish we can be friends like able to chillout together, talk over fone, share bit and bits of life and even able to share each others' joy and sorrow. Hmm...pls dun feel awkwards abt it as i guess we are all mature ppl rite??? I am a very easy going wif abit of humour in mi though. Those who knows me will always missed my laugher... Friendster is a damn cool place to know ppl but then a bad point it is that ppl haf to really wait days to chat or ratherrecieved and reply mail from friends that gets mi crazy. A chat room here be better, rite? Anyway,I am here to ask for ur mercy to spare me from waiting for answers....CAN WE contact each other in other ways like fone, ICQ or something???Kinda igorning in here to speak each other, well here is my cell fone number if u dun mind having it (H/P)9XXXXXXX also my (ICQ)4XXXXXXX add me @ XXXXXXX@yahoo.com this is becoz' I thinkif we can chat online or rather thru' fone will be cool guess that is better and faster way to know each other better. yeah? Hmm...its fine if u dun feel like it, no worries coz' thts only how i feel though. I am sure meeting up for coffee or high tea is fine rite...(guess tht takes abit of time-huh?)better to know each other abit longeri guess. Unfortunately, I haf to leave for states again next yr, Haiiiizzz, hope this waiting game able to end b4 i leave man. Kiddin' ok. nvr too late.... Quote of the day "To Be Old And Wise,FIRST we have to be Young And stupid"...........LIFE IS A LEARNING PROGRESS isn't it true??? Ok, cool...have been toking lot, guess u r sick of mi..longwinded?! So u TAKE CARE and haf a good weekend and week ahead. God bless u ger. Always there Adios Amigo,Alvino

Saturday, August 07, 2004

Dim sum dollies

French class

The hectic week of euro working hours at work has left me pretty exhausted and spent. I struggled to get out of bed this afternoon and contemplated not going for class. Really wanted to make it for the French singing class at 1pm but that was the time I woke up. Sigh. Thank God I made it for the 2.30 weekly class. I'm glad I went. Totally enjoyed today's lesson. More grammar, more vocabulary and though I can't speak french that eloquently yet, its erm.. well getting there. :) I was telling dom that it would be a dream come through if i can converse with him totally in french one day. We shall see, eh?


Dim sum dollies


Caught this after class with Fang, my friend and theatre/musical khaki. This was superb and highly entertaining! Tres bien. Ii desu yo! I had many laughs and I'm sure Fang enjoyed it too. It was a rather spontaneous crowd today and there was hardly a dull moment. I bought the soundtrack because I was highly amused by one of the songs in it.. its aptly titled 'Parking Pontianak'. For those who don't know malay or are not locals, 'pontianak' means ghost, usually referring to female ghosts. Parking Pontianak refers to our local car parking attendants who patrols car parks checking that car owners have put enough car coupons for parking. They are typically stereotyped as muslim ladies commonly known as 'Fatimah'. Anyways, Pam Oei did a wonderful rendition of a 'Fatimah' with her thickly muslim-scented english and boy, that sure sent the audience rolling in our seats with laughter! Bagus I tell ya. She was awesome!

'he cha, chi tian xin, tian xin tian xin' !! :P

National Day

Bonne fete Nationale Singapour! Last year's national day, I remembered being a MC at my friend's church wedding (and still having my braces on). And look how fast time has flown. She's gonna be celebrating her one year's wedding anniversary! And what braces? Now they are replaced by retainers! no more metallic smile.. :)

Yes, back to our nation's 39th birthday. I could dwell on this and go into a discussion about our tumultous nation building years, the trial and tribulations, and our sweet success as a nation.. how we come so far from being a tiny country, a small red dot on the world map to where we represent today. In fact I remembered some of this discussions with my aussie mates back then in university. And does anyone remember the 'Remaking Singapore' committee that was set up, which collected papers from singaporean overseas on their views on remaking Singapore? I am proud to say that I was in the student team in sydney which contributed a paper back then. I think I covered the historical aspects of the papers.. yes I was a history major if you were wondering. Don't ask me why I am working in a bank now. I wonder sometimes too.

National day national day.. I am proud to be a Singaporean and though at times the pastures do look greener on the other side, I know I can never fully uproot and migrate. I still want to pursue my post graduate education overseas or/and work overseas, but to give up my citizenship.. I would never do that. No matter what, this is still my home where I grew up. Home is where the heart belongs, how true that is.

Happy National Day Singapore. Omedatogozaimus.

Friday, August 06, 2004

Shrek !!

These days I buy Cds on a regular basis that I tend to forget what I have. Eeps. So while I was rummaging through my stacks of CDs lying around collecting dust, I realised to my much delight that I have this! Heh, the webby addy is only a mere sneaky sneak preview of the original soundtrack. :) I'm blasting the original soundtrack now and its waaayyy cool :))) And wow, how I love the movies, both of them! :)

I'm a sucker for animation movies. And my all time faves are Shrek and Finding Nemo! Nemo nemo!!

Emotion Eric

This guy is absolutely hilarious!! Go check it out! I'm laughing my head off. LOL :P

Thursday, August 05, 2004

Two things

Of blow drying my hair.

I am lazy when it comes to drying my hair before I go to bed. When I was younger, my mum used to blow dry them. As I get older, she will nag my ears off if I don't dry my hair. When I had a boyfriend, I always make the bf blow dry my hair. Its funny how the act of blow-drying the hair makes me feel loved and pampered.

These days, particularly on a late night like today.. I would usually let my hair dry naturally on its own. Am too darn lazy to blow dry them and there is no one I can ask.. sigh. anyway mum's asleep now. so she won't possibly know i slept with my hair wet. *grins*

Of blogging and what I call word therapy

I was first introduced to the wonderful world of online journals back then in 1999, during my first year in university. By chance, I came to know of a friend's journal at diaryland and thought it a brilliant way to keep in touch with friends and family back home. So I started this and soon I was hooked. Initially the entries were written for an audience in mind, ie. people who were wondering how I was doing in sydney. Soon the diary entries grew very intense and way too personal. It documented my relationship with my first boyfriend David and saw our split a year after. It witnessed how Kevin and I met, how I struggled with long distance relationship when I came back home to Singapore. It recorded our painful breakup and my lowest moments in life.

By and by, I grew weary of being in a depressive mode and wanted so badly to snap out of it. And I decided that a closure would do me good, hence I stopped updating diaryland. If I was going to move forward, I don't want to lug an emotional baggage with me. It wasn't an easy decision to make because i'm a nostalgic person and i tend to cling on to the past, for what reason I do not know. Maybe I was afraid to move on to the unknown, to the future?

However with each passing day, it gets easier. The past still haunts me but its slowly fading away.. I've learnt to let go, let live and live. Afterall, life's too short to dwell on the unpleasant episodes. And God has certainly been really good to me. Life is indeed beautiful - it can be if you only choose so.

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

I'm thinking of you

I just had the most yummilicious dried duck noodles, topped with lotsa deep fried onion crips. And all that washed down with a huge glass of icy cold ribena :)~ such bliss. And you know what time is it now?? Its SOLERO time! :))

Sammy boy

It was a crazy day at work. I am very drained and exhausted. And because I didn't sleep well last night, I had a splitting headache for most part of the day. eeks.

We had our monthly birthday celebration at work today and there was too much food again. Love the icecream cake though :)~

hmm.

Ever wonder if a guy and a girl can be good friends without crossing the romantic boundaries? Platonic relationships, possible? Myth or reality? I was telling some colleagues at work that I miss Sam (our ex colleague) who has moved over to our London office recently. Sam was not just a colleague to me.. he was a friend, my mate.. and a member of the Office Spammies! The name because we would spam one another like mad using office emails ala instant messenger style. Haha! There were 5 of us in the clique (2 dudes and 3 dudettes) and gosh we are so full of nonsense whenever we are together. The in/famous five we are :)

To cut the story short, Sam and I were the remaining 2 left after the other 3 abandoned us for greener pastures. I guess because we had similar wavelength, we got along really well and people noticed. After he left, I really miss subjecting him to my verbal abuse. lol. Anyways, those colleagues were commenting how Sam and I would look good together blah blah blah. Without dwelling too much on it, I simply commented that Sam and I are great friends and platonic relationships do exist. I love Sam to bits but not in that romantic sort, makes sense?

anyways.

It got me thinking about my relationships with the guys around me. I have no lack of male companionship and I am blessed with good guy friends. However, I do not see these dudes as potential bf/ husband material. To me, they are simply my friends who happen to be of the weaker sex. haha! And moreover most of these guys see me like a brother / bother / crazy girl ! I can be quite a nutter at times. I behave very vely differently when I am with a guy I like in a romantic sense. I can be very sacharine sweet if I want to. Pooey, I feel disgusted even saying that.

so, hence.

If you happen to be one of my good guy friends (you know who you are) reading this, hello! bonjour! :) And no worries, you are safe from my evil clutches.

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

Morning has broken

My biological clock is going haywire again. Its 5.15am in the morning and I am still wide awake. Thank God I don't start work till 5pm the next day.. I'm back to the weird hours at work. 5pm to 2am. Euro markets I tell ya. ah well.

I like the still of the night, away from the hustle and bustle of day. Funny how I play music on the cd player at a comfortable non-intrusive volume, as compared to that during the day when I will normally crank it up to drown all else out. I like how quiet it is that you can listen to the soft caress of the morning breeze and embrace the freshness of dawn. It relaxes and settles me. It allows me breathing space to catch my breath and gather my thoughts. It rejuvenates me and it brings a smile to my face.

I am very thankful today. Lord, thank you for what you have done in the lives of L and J. Truly, you are the alpha and omega. Thank you for dying on the cross for us wretched beings so unworthy of your great love. Thank you for always being there for me even when I fail you miserably. Thank you for not giving up on me even when I have given up on myself. Thank you for being my Lord and saviour. Thank you for all you have blessed me with and I pray I will lead a life pleasing to your eye. Help me Lord, this I pray.

Monday, August 02, 2004

Moulin Rouge

Brilliant show! One of my all time faves. I probably watched it twice when it was showing in the movies back in 2001. Spectacular spectacular! And the soundtrack is wow too! :)

Love is like oxygen, love is a many splendour thing, love lifts us up to where we belong... all you need is love..

What a day

Can you believe I sang almost 3 hours of karaoke this afternoon? wahahaha. Well, I didn't really exactly sing 3 hours straight. Half the time, I was sitting with my jaws wide open in awe, listening to Noel sing. heh, he's really not too bad at all. :) *swoons* yah right.. pooey! *rolls eyes*

Then I went to the esplanade to catch Private Parts by Michael Chiang with TF. She's undoubtedly my theatre / musical / plays khaki. I think in this year alone, we've watched at least 7 productions already. That's more than what an average singaporean watch in a year. Last I checked, the average singaporean watches 2 productions a year. Its a pity i didn't keep all my ticket stubs. Gonna start with this one. :) And yeah, we are watching The revenge of the dim sum dollies next saturday. Cool bananas! :) Can't wait!