Frustrating
I went to bed last night a rather grumpy and frustrated person.
You see - the ex decided to spring a surprise visit on MSN.
It all started well with pleasantries exchanged. I was happy to be on MSN with him. I always thought we should remain as friends despite all that's happened. We don't have to pretend each other no longer exist even after the break up, right?
Then, he started telling me how much he misses me. Oh oh, I thought. Not a good sign.
Then, he asked if I was seeing anyone. Yes, I said. And immediately I knew something's going to happen.....
True enough, he started going into this "My life is miserable, I might as well die" mode. Started sprouting nonsense about how I should look out for his obituary ad in the papers etc...
Ugh. Very frustrating. I hated it, but I was worried.
I hate how he did this emotional blackmail thing on me. I care about him as a friend, but I am not going to take any nonsense from him. What does he expect me to do? To be swept off by him saying he misses me and run back to his embrace? To tell him that everything will be ok?
Sigh.
Childish, if you ask me. I would very much love to say to him "Get a life" but I didn't have the heart to say it.
In the end, I just left the MSN conversation and went straight to bed ready to concuss. And I did. I was totally spent physically and a little emotionally as well.
Fast forward to today, I met the dearest for dinner. I was wondering if it would be a good idea to tell him about the ex episode.
Was I bothered and upset about it? Yes I was, and I needed to get it out of my system.
So, I told him what happened and he listened intently. I didn't want to keep anything from him and needed him to give me another perspective.
His conclusion?
The ex is being childish and is probably not sucidal at all. We all should get a grip of our lives and its never worth it to die for anyone... An emotional game he is trying to play. Go get a life.
Yeah.. go get a life. Actually, get a grip of yourself. Move on...
You see - the ex decided to spring a surprise visit on MSN.
It all started well with pleasantries exchanged. I was happy to be on MSN with him. I always thought we should remain as friends despite all that's happened. We don't have to pretend each other no longer exist even after the break up, right?
Then, he started telling me how much he misses me. Oh oh, I thought. Not a good sign.
Then, he asked if I was seeing anyone. Yes, I said. And immediately I knew something's going to happen.....
True enough, he started going into this "My life is miserable, I might as well die" mode. Started sprouting nonsense about how I should look out for his obituary ad in the papers etc...
Ugh. Very frustrating. I hated it, but I was worried.
I hate how he did this emotional blackmail thing on me. I care about him as a friend, but I am not going to take any nonsense from him. What does he expect me to do? To be swept off by him saying he misses me and run back to his embrace? To tell him that everything will be ok?
Sigh.
Childish, if you ask me. I would very much love to say to him "Get a life" but I didn't have the heart to say it.
In the end, I just left the MSN conversation and went straight to bed ready to concuss. And I did. I was totally spent physically and a little emotionally as well.
Fast forward to today, I met the dearest for dinner. I was wondering if it would be a good idea to tell him about the ex episode.
Was I bothered and upset about it? Yes I was, and I needed to get it out of my system.
So, I told him what happened and he listened intently. I didn't want to keep anything from him and needed him to give me another perspective.
His conclusion?
The ex is being childish and is probably not sucidal at all. We all should get a grip of our lives and its never worth it to die for anyone... An emotional game he is trying to play. Go get a life.
Yeah.. go get a life. Actually, get a grip of yourself. Move on...
posted by Shazza at Wednesday, March 23, 2005
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